Emptiness isn’t such a good feeling. It’s like you’re put in the spot light and then you find that those you believe will stand by you, have actually left you hanging… Alone and all by yourself. I wonder if that’s how He felt when one of His chosen ones betrayed Him… Denied Him…

In this season and day of His birth, I pray for a change of heart that I may know and understand my Savior as He is - My God who loved me so much that He was willing to suffer and live through human experience/s just so I can be saved.

He’s a very personal God. One who understands me and what I’m going through because He himself went through pain and suffering. He too loved and was put aside, rejected and worse, taken for granted by those He loved the most.

Painful as it may be, I believe now is the time to be born again… And just as we celebrate His coming, we should also celebrate our freedom from the chains that bind us. Gone with the old and in with the new - a new way of thinking more like, so that we may know and enjoy the freedom of being fully His. Free from anxiety, despair and fear.

I am His and He is mine. For only when I fully acknowledge His supremacy and being first in my life can I actually experience true joy.

Hmmm… Maybe the time alone He’s been giving me the past few days are actually time for myself and Him. I guess my God is pretty (excuse the term) selfish that way - selfish of His love for me and in His desire to make me be and have the best that this world can offer. No use struggling on my part anymore because again, He reigns supreme and He will push through with His plans regardless of whether I like it or not. So why bother struggling? I should just leave everything in His very capable hands. For He can and will do all that is in His power to accomplish.

So today, I offer my life to You my God. Please reign in me again and work Your will. I am letting go of the plans I have for myself and I am letting You be God. Work Your way in me and help me be / see / get to the best You’ve planned for me.

“What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” - Romans 8:31 NIV